Sunday, October 25, 2009

One Week!

Seven days. No cigarettes. Not one. Not even a puff.

That may seem like no big deal to a lot of people and I know that I've pretty much devoted the whole week to yammering about not smoking...but this is a huge thing for me. I've been trying to quit for years. Usually I could do it for about 3 days before relapsing, with all the resulting frustration and guilt along with the bonus of an increase in the amount I smoked. It was a vicious cycle that I could not figure a way out of, and it was killing me.

Something clicked this time. I don't know what or how, but something is different about this attempt. Oh...there are still the urges, the temptations, the self-rationalizations; but it doesn't seem to have any power over me any more. At long last, I feel like I have control.

And....if I can control this....I can control other things about my body as well.

3 comments:

Elise said...
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Elise said...

I just wanted to say good for you! You should feel proud, it is a truly major accomplishment to quit smoking. I know some who have smoked for 40 plus years and hate it but can't stop so kudos to you! Keep going!!

Erik said...

Yes. You can control your body. You can give up smoking. Don't let smoking be the thing that decides everything else, though. Lots of people feel so defeated by this drug. It is more addictive than heroine.

Get away, earn your life back.

Much love.